Friday, March 30, 2012

To See Myself as One

If I had the opportunity to have my one perfect day, being a mom this may be selfish but I would be alone.  I love to be at the beach watching the sunrise with my picnic basket, a book, radio and plenty of sunscreen. To walk on the boardwalk and feel what beauty is front of us. I hope that in the water the reflection will guide me to what decision I have to make and comfort when I cry my tears into it.

As my day closes, I watch the sunset and sit with my Namaste to feel the water on feet and tickle my toes.  It is the time when I will need to feel grounded.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Leather Weather Is Best

There are those that love summer and wearing shorts and there are those who love the feel of snow brushing across their face.

As for me trust me I love warm weather but personally the way I go is Leather Weather. I love wearing my bike jacket with my boots and jeans. When I wear them I feel confident and the young me is being shown. It is a part of me that I never want to lose especially memories of my hair band days.

Most of my boyfriends were the rockers with the long hair, dark eyes and earrings in which loved walking hand in hand in our jackets.  It just had that rebellion look to it.

When Leather Weather arrives it is neither hot nor cold but just right. It is when you walk out during the night and still able to have your jacket open.

Visualize as cool in flip flops and skiing or making snowman, look at Leather Weather that even in the rain it has a nice look to it with the drops trickling from it.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Can It Be Either Or or None of the Above

The prompt for today is, do i prefer if it is hot or cold, well I will be honest I don't like either.

I may be actually cheating on this but really neither is preferable, I just like my leather weather where I can wear my boots and jacket.

Sorry nothing exciting to share.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Rainy Days

Rainy days for one has multiple meanings at least for me.
One, is Singing In The Rain by Gene Kelly.  As a child which now I may began to show my age, I remember when my parents watched it and seeing what joy it brought to Gene Kelly as he danced in the street. It was childlike with with eyes wide open with innocence.  If I was out and it was raining, the first thing I did was close my umbrella and walk in the rain. As I walked, I looked for the biggest puddles to splash in and to this day I still do it. As I look for puddles, I do the same when I drive my car and drive through them.I know it isn't good for my breaks, once in a while it is okay.
When feeling a bit of sass and being with my girls it is a unit of powerful women. As we stick together each will be there for each other through thick and thin.

Let's Build a Snowman

Snow brings innocence and childhood in which there is no guilt in playing in. When it snows all I remember is making snow forts and hiding snowballs in my freezer so when summer comes to throw them.

The snow I always remembered all our friends in the neighborhood getting together to have a snowball fight.  As we fight get together with teams being outside from noon until dinner time with red noses and rosy cheeks. It definitely built a great appetite and a good nights sleep.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Eeeny Meenie Miny Mo

In life, we all have choices but sometimes it does not always work out the way we expect.  As things may go disarray, sometimes a Plan B is always in the back.

As life goes on, one should not always fall back to a Plan B and accept the consequences that will occur from  the event that happens.  One example that can be is protecting our children. I don't mean it as we should not but rather they need to learn how to take care of themselves if an issue occurs. If it has become a repetitive issue then the child should handle it him/herself for that is what growing pains are about.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Decisions Decisions

Decisions and decisions is there a simple way to handle them. Do I discuss them to see if I can get guidance based on their opinion.  What will happen if when I work with another toward that decision it is wrong.

When a decision is to be made think of all the factors involved with it then ask yourself if help is required.  Personally, I feel making a decision on my own is best due that I do not want someone to get hurt from decision made.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Fly Away

Wouldn't life be a breeze if we can just fly away from the things we fear or hurt by the most.  If I was given a choice of being invisible or being able to fly, I prefer flying away. I think with invisibility is like running away from your problems.

If I had the ability to fly to fly the air in my face and have all fears and problems stay in the sky and breathe.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Part of Your World

In my teens which what about to say will show you my age, I love the movie Splash with Tom Hanks and Darryl Hannah.  It was the simpleness of the story and see how the ocean brought them together.  Then as I got older the Little Mermaid to this day still brings a tear to my eye. With all Disney movies, I wonder if I can find my prince in the water.

I love the ocean especially at night. It brings out this serenity and the darkness of the ocean as the wave crashes on the beach. The beach is open and belongs to no one but yourself.  I find it a place of solitude where tears have been shed for lost loves and difficult days where no one can see how it affected you.  With the tears of sadness can be washed into the ocean and then start the day anew. 

As I go into the ocean and explore what is around with a dolphin feel the water against my face and across my body. There is an innocence that cannot be explained only a feeling of how the water is against your skin.

As I ponder and look forward to even the dark waves crashing and drawing me into the deep wonders of the world underneath I am open. I am open to live for the now in the deep blue sea living among the water creatures and maybe finding my prince.

Friday, March 2, 2012

The Choice is Yours

In a real world, it would be nice for someone to make our choices for us. With them making the changes it means you do not have to responsible for whatever happens.  

As simple as it seems, there is no growth from it.  We are fortunate that we have the opportunity to make choices whether wise or dumb it comes down to you.  The choices we make makes us the person we are today.  With that the character aspects as part of making a choice is humility, defeat and happiness to name a few.  

If you have the power to decide for yourself, be grateful for those living in other areas cannot have that option.  Take a moment think of the individuals who lived in countries that the choices were made for them and if they disobeyed, they were punished. 

Live for today and no matter what the choice is whether good or bad the CHOICE is yours.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

To be or not to be...that is the question

First, I like to say that as a person diagnosed with panic and anxiety disorder when uncertainty meant scary.  When I say scary on a scale ranging from one to ten, my score would be a thirteen due of the anxiousness of what uncertainty lies ahead. 

Since starting therapy a few months ago, one item on top of the list was to look at the uncertain.  When the feeling of uncertainty arose in me, the fear became overwhelming to the point that my face turned pale. 

If the uncertainty of how you feel makes you scared, you cannot allow the fear to overwhelm you.  If you are scared, believe in yourself to not fear it rather anticipate it whether positive or negative. 

If the uncertainty is exciting, take a three deep breath counts and count to five.  Remember when it is exciting remember to keep aware and not think logically because the emotions you just want to ride that high. 

The main thing of all is to be confident with yourself accept what uncertainty it will bring to you.  Whether it is exciting or scary, keep a clear mind before your emotions take the control and be regrettable.